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It has been a wild ride past my 26th birthday, and basically I’m still feeling a little depressed. Celebrated with a few close friends, close enough to care. Thanks guys, you know who you are.

And on the next night Aileen being the good friend she is bought me a nice dinner, nothing comes close to satisfying me with food – good food.

The next big thing was me joining the GRA autocross or to some it’s called a car park rally, a week later.

I try my best at joining these kinds of events atleast once a year, so just to prove that I’m not all talk and no walk like some people out there.

They talk about driving and how to do it fast, quick, but that’s all they do, talk. I hate those kinds of people.

I ranked 11 out of 20 plus drivers in my class. Not bad for somebody who only had like 3 hours of sleep.

But the craziest thing I did last month was to be the observer for proton’s Malaysian book of records attempt. They had a bid to do the most fuel efficient run around the Malaysian peninsular and needed somebody neutral to be the official observer.

Being with a technical background I was called and the challenge was accepted. It took us three days going from KL, up north and down to the south before coming back to KL at the average speeds of 60 to 70km/h. They got the record.

Oh yeah, I won a handphone! Thanks to Hyundai for organizing the fuel efficient competition for media. Drove from glenmarie, to kajang, nilai, klia and back to glenmarie with using the least amount of fuel.

Didn’t get first place though, the first two cars had lighter driver and passenger, me and my partner (azlan ramli) was in the slightly heavy category. Nevertheless we both got something for it.

Since we’re talking about wining, I also won a photography contest organized by Daimler Chrysler for their ml350 test drive to club med, cherating. Woke up at 6am to shoot the suv in the morning sun by the beach.

Worth the trouble since I got first place beating other more experienced cameramen. Dont wanna brag but they are really good.

In other news two of my friend’s mom passed away. Both because of cancer, I’m glad my mother found out about her’s very early so she had it removed and so far so good.

It hit me that if she didn’t know about it she wouldn’t be here now. All in all it has been a hectic month, just to keep my head busy from thinking how lonely I am.

This month looks like it’s gonna be another crazy one also thanks to raya. Drive safely people, call me cocky but remember the number one rule, "everybody else on the road is an idiot" so lookout and you’ll be fine.

Got a few plans I have to execute this month, hoping it works and I can get out of this awful feeling in my heart. Thanks to all the friends that tried to cheer me up, too many to type and I might miss a few. So not to offend anybody I’m just gonna say you know who you are. Thanks from the bottom of my heart.

Hmm, it’s been awhile since I jot something down. Not that I forgot or something but my new position have been keeping me pretty busy.

The last time I penned something it was before my trip to Austria, that was fun. Blasting through the Autobahn at speeds exceeding 250km/h, and then slowing down just a tad on the twisty bits of the hill pass in the new BMW 335 coupe.

After that trip it was the Proton Satria Neo, not the best I’ve driven but the route took us (me and other journalist) from KL to Had Yai and Phuket and that was the highlight. The whole thing took us five days and four nights and we clocked 2180km to and fro.

Sounds like fun but at the end its kinda lonely. Everybody has someone to come home to, me, just somebody that’s hoping.

I know I should not let it get to my head but I can’t help it. I need someone to lean on, I need someone to talk (and talk back) to, I just need someone to be more than just a friend.

Maybe this line of work is not doing it for me, maybe I’ll be happier if I settle down and do something closer to home.

Maybe I should go ahead with the dream of opening my own business in the food retailing industry?

A lot of people do say that food is where the real money is, whatever happens people need to eat.

Am I doubting myself? Yes and no. Yes on what I am doing now and no for my dream of opening my own café.

I always wanted my very own place to hangout and meet friends. Yeah, its clear now that that’s the way I have to go. Maybe not in the near future but soon. And then do motoring on the side.

There, the shrink on tv was right. He said type it down in a diary or blog anything that is bothering you and it will be easier to go through and you’ll feel better at the end of it.

Till next time people, thanks for reading and understanding the things that’s going on in my twisted and lonely head.

Its another half an hour before I go off to the airport. A mixture of being excited and scared have been haunting me since early this morning.

I hate flying but I would put driving a turbo charged 3 series right next to being the toy boy for some famous actress.

Well, more when I have a chance next time, but in case I dont. I love you all.

Had a good day today, fitted the pedals (damn good), hang out with a friend to checkout the chick scene at the Curve and later spent some “quality” time with someone I fancy.

We had dinner and later shoot some pool. But that’s normal, what really got me feeling satisfied is the talk we had.

She asked me late last year if I want to move on to the next step but since I was just a few weeks out of the last relationship and not feeling ready yet I said no, well I’m still kinda kickin myself for it.

Then a month later I gathered all my guts and asked her if the offer still stands, she said things had changed for the worst in her life with family and work and she had to say “wait”.

Nothing happened for awhile until yesterday, we talked and touched on subjects that was never reachable before.

It made me understand where I stand better, why she’s the person she is today and why things are what they are. Well that’s life and she is another friend that I really treasure.

For now, if the opportunity comes I won’t waste it but it doesn’t mean I’m gonna stop trying.

I need a good hug, any volunteers?

Today I’ll get my hands on (or feet in this case) a set of original Razo pedals for my heel-and-toe driving style, woohoo! I’m so excited I feel like I’m seven again and my birthday is coming.

I’m also looking for some sponsors as I have been offered a seat for the Merdeka Millenium 12-hour Endurance race next month.

Cross your fingers and toes and pucker up your ass for me peeps so I get some sponsers!!!

I am a paranoid man!!! Ever since my car was broken into for the second time I’ve been having doubts at leaving my baby alone in a car park.

The thought of being violated again keeps lingering in my head whenever I park the car, even at home.

In other news, I got my eye infected again. My theory is that it’s jealous of my left eye since this happened at about the same time last year after the Japan GT. Since I shoot the babes with my left eye, my right eye decided to get infected to show its anger. At least that’s my theory la.

Hopefully it heals before next week as I am going for my first oversea trip in three years. The last one was to San Francisco for the Michelin Challenge Bibendum and next week is Austria for the BMW 3 series coupe.

Unfortunately it’s a tightly scheduled trip, get on a plane, land, sleep, wake up, test car, sleep, and then fly back.

So the only experience I’ll get from it is to see the place from inside a car as to suppose in the television.

Well, better that than nothing at all eh?

Till next time, have a nice week.

Son of a $%@, my car got broken into again last night. This is the second time in a year and at the same place, near my office in Medan Tuanku at night. The a$% hole broke the front passenger side window and ransacked the glovebox and centre console. Violated, that’s how it feels to get your car broken into; luckily the only thing that animal got away with was just a MP3 player. My head unit, amp, vacuum meter, CDs and other stuff is still there. I hope! Now going to Raymond’s to replace the broken window. Burn in hell to the bastard that did this to my baby!!!

Japan GT is here woohooo, it’s the only time of the year you could get in less than five feet to a bunch of skimpily dressed Jap girls and not look perverted, but more important are the cars.

These cars are what wet dreams are made off to a petrol head. The sound, the speed and the smell, intoxicating and orgasmic at the same time.

Being part of a local motoring mag gives me access to the track and I’ll be there for two days, soaking in the atmosphere and enjoying the race.

To the unlucky people who can’t join me, please feel free to weep but fortunate for you I’ll be dedicating 4 pages of my mag to the event.

So till then, sayonara for now and have a nice weekend people.

It’s been awhile since I bloggged, not that I don’t want to or got nothing to say. Just that I have just been promoted to editor post and the handing over of the job from the old editor to the new one has a few hiccups. But basically this just means more work and more responsibilities for me. So here I am sitting in the office on a Sunday working.

In other news I finally found out why my last relationship didn’t work, communication! I had laid all my cards on the table but the other side didn’t do so and kept it to herself. In the end she didn’t feel secure and that’s how the cookie crumbles. What the heck, moving on.

Since I don’t have a girlfriend (maybe I should stamp a big L on my forehead!) all my attention other than on work have been to making my Corolla go faster. This is largely thanks to the fact that I have always been addicted to speed and the chance to drive the formula BMW was a big boost to that. So last weekend after getting a straight through muffler (damn-JPJ-attracting-super-loud), I did a few laps around Sepang track. Not so good as I found out that the brake hose couldn’t stand the beating and were expending under heat thus loosing pressure. So last Friday a set of steel braided hose were fitted and the result is amazing. This is one of those things that I recommend fitting on to your car even though your not a speed freak.

Well more next time. Till then, don’t do to others what you don’t want to be done to and remember, if you cant solve the problem then try driving around it.

A good friend had found out the truth about what his ex-gf was doing behind his back when they were still together. It was a powerful blow that would make me go bonkers if I was in his shoes.

I dont know how he’s gonna go through with it, all I can offer him are comforting words that I know wont help much with the sadness.

Imagine being stabbed in the back with a thousand knives, eventually you’ll bleed to death but in my friend’s case, he is still standing there.

Hang on bro, be a man, this is the time you really know who are your real friends.